Doing whatever it takes for my girlfriend

Hey guys. This is the story of me meeting a girl my senior year in college named Jenn. Lmk what you think!

"I'm really sorry..." Jenn said, crying. I held her in my arms. Even then, she wasn't comfortable.

"It's okay. I'm willing to wait until you're ready." I told her.

Jenn: "It just reminds me of Frank too much." She was shaking. Frank had gone on a Tinder date with Jenn over a year ago, and while it went well, Frank ended up raping Jenn. She's never been had sex since.

"I've waiting my entire life. I can wait a little longer." I told her. At 22, I was a virgin.

Jenn: "You're such a sweet guy," she told me, "but I'm just not ready to be in a relationship."

I wasn't ready to accept that. Jenn was the first girl I really liked in a very long time. We were compatible in a way that I wasn't with any other girl. And she made me feel a way no other girl made me feel. I was hard as a rock. Giving up on Jenn wasn't an option.

"I think we can make it work." I told her.

Jenn: "There's just so much fear... and anger... and you just remind me of him, just the way you talk and even the way you look."

"Maybe there's a way I can help?" I told her.

Jenn: "I just can't trust guys. Not after that."

Me: "You shouldn't let one piece of shit destroy your life."

Jenn: "Easy for you to say. It's easy for guys when they can just force themselves on us and ruin their lives forever."

I paused. Obviously, she wasn't being reasonable. But I obviously couldn't relate: how could I?

"What if I found this Frank guy and beat the shit out of him?

Jenn: "I don't even know where he is. I don't even know if that's his real name, to be honest."

I paused. I felt helpless. But I knew in my heart that I had to do something.

"I mean, you say I remind you of him. What if we roleplay a little bit and I pretend to be Frank?"

Jenn: "I don't think that's a good idea. I mean, I'm so hurt, and I'm so mad..."

"I mean, I want to help you get past this. Even if it's not with me." I said, as I looked away. Obviously, I wanted it to be me.

Jenn: "If I saw Frank again, I'd beat the shit out of him. That stupid, fucking, useless piece of shit."

"If it helps you I could pretend to be Frank and you could beat the shit out of me."

Jenn: "That's assault. It's not just assault, it's sexual assault."

"It's not if I'm consenting to it."

Jenn: "I mean, there's a lot of anger and pain. There is something to it I guess, but... I'd feel terrible."

"If you're talking about ending our relationship over this, I just... if this is what I've gotta do, I'm happy to do it if it helps you. I can't stand seeing you like this."

Jenn: "You're gonna get hurt... Pretty badly."

"That's okay."

Jenn: "I need some time. I don't think you know what you're agreeing to."

"I'm pretty sure I know what I'm agreeing to. I'm going to pretend to force myself onto you, and you're going to beat the living daylights out of me. You're gonna kick and punch and slap the shit of me. And considering it was rape and that has a sexual component to it..."

I paused. She's right. I hadn't really thought about this.

Jenn: "Go on..."

"Because this has a sexual component, I have to let you hit me... down there." I'm sure I sounded hesitant. Like any guy, I've never always wanted to protect my jewels. Other than the occasional tennis ball, I've never really gotten hit like down there before, but I knew enough to know it really hurt.

Jenn: "And you're okay with that?" Have you ever gotten hit down there before? I don't think I could do that to a guy..."

I looked down at my boxers, then looked back at her. "Yeah. And like, yeah, it's bad... but I can take it." I lied. I had no idea. But I didn't really have a choice. I could never live this down if I didn't do it. All those sleepless nights, those feelings of loneliness, they could all disappear. I'd do anything. How bad could it be?

She then took her hand and caressed my penis through my underwear. It felt absolutely amazing.

Jenn: "If you did this for me I really would be grateful. Are you sure?"

I nodded. "This is a one time thing, I'm never gonna do this again, but if this is what you need me to do, then yeah."

Jenn: "I'm not sure I can go through with this. Maybe next time I'll be more ready. Because I really like you." she told me.

"I really like you too. So let's do this. Next time I see you, I'm gonna want to have sex obviously. And if you want to do it, great. But if you can't, and I'll be fully prepared for this, you can instead beat the crap out of me, and I'll let you, as best as I can."

Next weekend, I went over to Jenn's house. I brought some pizza over, and it was gonna be a Netflix and chill type of thing, as we watched a Disney movie. With that, Jenn cuddled into my lap. Over the course of the movie, I began to caress her. She looked so beautiful, as I began to become more and more intimate. I wasn't used to being so assertive, as I gradually touched her neck, then her back.

"You remember what we talked about last time I was here?" I whispered to her.

"Yeah." she whispered back.
I slowly started to make my way under her shirt, first starting on her back, and while she was uncomfortable, she certainly let me, as I kissed her. I then slowly brought my hand to her breast, as she shivered, scared.
"I want to, but I can't", she whispered.

I continued to push through. In my mind, there were only two choices: either we were gonna have sex, or I was gonna get beaten up. I took my shirt off, and she reluctantly did the same, leaving her in just her bra. She was obviously super uncomfortable.

We cuddled as I began to touch her ass through her shorts, as she laid there, conflicted and scared. I began to rub my erection into her body, when she whispered:

Jenn: "I can't."

"Push through it."

Jenn: "If you keep going, I'm going to hurt you."

"If that's how this goes down, that's okay."

I reached underneath her shorts, touching her naked ass, softly. She largely was unresponsive. I felt dirty and horrible doing this, but either way, it had to be for the best, I told myself. It was obvious that she wasn't ready for this either way, whether it was having sex or beating me up and facing her fears.

I gulped. But I had to push the issue even further. I reached down to my own waistband, and removed my shorts and underwear in one fell swoop. It was the first time she'd seen me naked.

Jenn recoiled on the couch from me, as I went after her.

"We can do this, Jenn." I told her.

Jenn: "I'm not ready."

"We'll take it slow." I told her.

Jenn: "No means no." she blurted out, yelling. "Frank."

I gulped. But this is what I signed up for, and if that meant getting my ass kicked, so be it. Though it didn't feel great, I knew what I had to do, as I crawled over to her. She reached back and slapped me across the face, hard.

She stood up, and I stood up alongside her. "I'll never forgive you for what you did." she said, as I tried to grab her by the wrists. As I grabbed her left wrist, she look a step back. It was at this moment that I realized: she's about to kick me in the balls.

I gulped. I thought about moving out of the way: I could've avoided it if I wanted to. But I knew this was gonna happen sooner or later, and there was no point in prolonging the inevitable. I took a step to the side, giving her even more access to my most vulnerable parts, and braced myself as I watched her foot sail mercilessly into my manhood.

I regretted it instantly. My entire stomach began to feel nauseous, and my legs wanted to collapse. Any bravado or thought that this was worthwhile instantly left me, replaced by pain radiating between my legs. All I really wanted to do was fall over and protect my nuts. But I knew I couldn't: if for no other reason, that I knew she'd continue to attack regardless. With my left hand, I began to guard my nuts as I continued to approach.

I took her left wrist, and forced her down to the couch, as she reared back and threw a right hand to my stomach. While this didn't feel great, I was able to absorb it, as I reached down and pinned her legs to the couch, then freeing my left hand from guarding my privates and using it to unbutton and unzip her pants, being careful to leave my head exposed.

At this point, she grabbed my neck and began to choke me. I began to reposition myself, trying to break free of her chokehold. At this point, while I once again grabbed her left wrist and pried it off my neck, she took her right hand and released my neck, and in one fluid motion, made a fist and sent it flying once again into my exposed family jewels.

My hands left my neck and instead went to protect my family jewels. At this point I'd had enough. My body felt utterly sick, and although the punch was nowhere near as bad as the kick, it was enough to shift all my attention to my aching nuts. This felt terrible.

Instead of fleeing, she pinned me against the couch before seeking to navigate her left hand into my crotch until she found her goal: my gonads, before grabbing them and squeezing for all she was worth.

I tried to fight off her grip, but it was too strong, and my nuts were paying the price, as I slowly began to fall off the couch. Once I collapsed to the ground, she removed her left hand from my crotch while taking her right hand and throwing a huge uppercut right in my private parts.

My entire body felt horrible at this point, as I curled up in the fetal position, protecting my gonads. "You think that was fun, Frank? Just another slut to add to your trophy case, hunh?" I knew she was about to slap me. I didn't really care at this point. All I could focus on was the pain between my legs, as she slapped me once, then twice, as hard as I could, while my hands and legs stayed still, protecting my traumatized valuables.

Jenn then crawled onto of me as I tried to cover up, before she whispered to me again.

Jenn: "I need you to get up and stand against the wall."
"I don't know if I can."
Jenn: "Please."

She then sat on the couch. I looked at her. My stomach and my balls felt terrible, pulsating in waves of pain. I knew that if I got up, she was inevitably going to punt me again in my nuts, if not worse, and I knew my balls could not take that. They were already tender and swollen, and that kick before felt absolutely awful.

I looked at her. She really needed me to do this. I looked down at my nuts in dread. Maybe I couldn't take this, but I had to try. I scrambled up to my feet, and very slowly made my way to the wall, limping, one hand holding my nuts. I took a very large gulp before looking at Jenn. My balls were on fire, my stomach was nauseated, and I'd never felt this bad before. But I knew that this meant the world to her. "The things I'd do for this girl," I thought to myself. I reluctantly, very slowly, took my hands off my nuts. I was trembling.

Jenn looked at me, and I'd never seen that much gratitude. She looked down, almost as if she didn't want to look at me for a second, before she looked up at me, hatred in her eyes. She slapped me across the face as hard as she could, before grabbed my wrists, pinning me to the wall, before she started screaming:

Jenn: "YOU THINK IT'S FUNNY, FRANK? YOU THINK YOU CAN JUST GO AROUND AND FORCE WOMEN TO HAVE SEX WITH YOU? YOU THINK THAT'S "COOL", DO YOU?"

I'm sure everyone in the neighborhood could hear it. I was scared. I could feel her raw emotion. And I knew I was probably in for more than just another kick.

Jenn: "Because of you, I spend many nights, alone, crying. I couldn't even date anyone. I found a great guy, and I couldn't even sleep with him even though I really wanted to, because of you, you fucking piece of shit!"

I smiled on the inside. But I hadn't ever seen anyone so angry in my life. "Stay strong. You've gotta take this" I thought to myself. I knew I was about to get totally clobbered, but if this is what I had to do to help and be with the woman of my dreams, it's gonna be totally worth it. I'd never been so motivated and empowered, yet scared and vulnerable all at the same time.

Jenn: "And you know how that feels Frank? I bet you don't. Well, let me show you, Frank." I braced myself against the wall "Shit, I'm about to get totally wrecked," I thought to myself. She then launches a devastating knee into my nuts, saying the word "This" while continuing to hold my arms in place. "THIS is how it feels, Frank."

The pain once again erupts between my legs. This does not feel like a shot that comes from a woman: it feels like someone who's seriously trying to break my nuts. It feels awful, as I grit my teeth, but I'm determined to take it even though I want to throw up. With all my effort, I keep my legs open as I see her wind up again.

She swings again. "THIS" is how it feels! as she once again drives her knee into my private parts.

At this point I've had enough. I can't do this. The pain is too much, as my entire body feels completely useless and is beginning to shut down. I try to move my arms, but she's holding them tightly, so I try to move my legs to block the next incoming knee from completely destroying me, but her knee is too fast, as she drives it as hard as she can into my manhood.

Jenn: THIS! is how it feels!

At this point I'm totally weak and defeated. I can't even think or act: I'm just a huge blob with a pair of balls. I'd never cried due to physical pain before, but my eyes are watering and I can't take anymore. This isn't worth it.

She looks me in the eye, and then I see her draw her leg back, although this time I can see it's not her knee, it's her foot. I softly let out a desperate "oh no..." as she lets my hands go, while immediately sending her foot flying, as hard as she can, with all her anger, screaming the word "FUCK!" as loud as she can.

My balls were trapped between her foot and my body, lifting my body off the ground. The pain is completely overwhelming, and I can't hold back my tears any longer. Before this point I had no idea this degree of pain is possible. I didn't think the feeling down there could get any worse, but this was definitely worse: much worse. I was in a delirious amount of pain, frozen in time. I feel like I'm having an out of body experience, as I want to fall and desperately protect my testicles, but something is preventing me from doing so. Before I can react, I see her wind up and deliver a second full force kick, annihilating whatever was left of my manhood.

My entire body goes flying about a foot into the air, as she screams "YOU!" at the top of her lungs.

Immediately after the second kick, my hands fly to protect my gonads, as I look at Jenn in the eyes and crumble to the floor. "It's me..." I tell her, sobbing in agony. Within seconds my face is covered in tears. There's no male alive who can take this amount of pain. After my balls were already screaming in pain as I limped into position, Jenn had absolutely annihilated me within a period of less than two minutes with three full force knees and two full force kicks to my precious parts. "My fucking balls!" I screamed, crying, delirious in pain.

Jenn runs off to the bathroom and I can hear her cry, and at this point I can do nothing to comfort her. I've just been totally destroyed. I'm wondering if I have balls left, as I weep on the floor, rolling around trying everything I possible can to try to soothe that horrible pain between the legs. Even my chest is covered in snot and tears. I'm on the verge of passing out, and I certainly want to, when Jenn comes back out, as I roll away from her.

"Please, I can't..." I tell her. "You completely massacred me down there," I blurted out, still sobbing, snot running out of my nose from the incapacitating pain.

"Please forgive me. I'm so sorry." she told me. She's also crying. I could tell she legitimately felt awful. "I never would've done this if I knew I was gonna do that to you. I can't even imagine how bad you must feel down there."

"It hurts so much, I've never felt pain even close to this before. I've gotta admit, I lied. I've honestly never even gotten kicked in the balls before this. Holy shit this hurts so much..." I said, continuing to drool and sob as wave after wave of agony continued to pulsate from my nuts throughout my entire body.

She sits down next to me and puts her hand on my shoulder and chest. While it feels nice, for now, it still pales in comparison the overwhelming pain.

"I know you're out of commission right now," she told me. Otherwise... you know," she said, reaching over to stroke my naked ass. I look at her and reluctantly move my hands. My balls are beet red and extremely swollen, as she softly, gingerly touches my balls and dick. And while it feels really good, my balls are way too sore, and I recoil from her touch.

"I can't right now." I tell her.

"This is the biggest thing anyone's ever done for me. I can't thank you enough." She holds my head in her chest as I continue to cry, trying and desperately failing to manage the pain. "I swear I'm gonna make this up to you."

I've been with her the last three years as of yesterday. The family heirlooms are fine, and we've had plenty of fantastic sex: I lost my virginity a few days after she wrecked my balls. I've thankfully never had to endure anything like that ever again. I honestly can say that was by far the most painful thing I've ever gone through in my entire life, but I can also say that if I had to go back in time, I absolutely would go through it again. She's my everything and I'd do anything for her: even go through that again if I had to.