would you ever date me?

i know im a "hot chick" and have the looks and body

but i grew up with lots of sa and have acted out for lots of years both as the victim and victimizer and feel bad about both and want to change
if you want to know how bad it was then read my profile but please dont be mean

but even if i change and become normal will a guy ever not care about the stupid and mean stuff and sl\*tty things ive done and actually want to love and marry me?