Strange Sympathy: Chapter 17 - Bonding, Boundaries and Ballbusting

"Like I said before, I'll take what I can get." Dave said, looking up at Lauren, enjoying the sensation of her foot playing with his testicles. He closed his eyes and leaned back, lips slightly parted. He started slowly thrusting his hips, pushing his balls into Lauren's foot. "That feels incredible."

Lauren slowed down and came to a stop. "Was there anything else you wanted to talk about?"

"Not right now, I just want to have some fun."

"Some fun huh?" Lauren said with a mischievous grin. She stood up and held out her hands. She helped Dave pull himself up from the bean bag chair. Once he was standing, she grabbed him by the balls and pulled him into a bedroom located on the ground floor. She helped him pull off his shirt and pushed him onto the bed. She stripped herself naked and jumped on the bed and straddled him. His dick was still in the waistband of his boxers and his balls were still sticking out of the hole. She lowered her soaking wet pussy onto his scrotum and gently rubbed her wetness all over his balls, slowly grinding down harder until Dave winced and grabbed her by the sides.

"Sorry, it just feels so good when I rub my pussy on your balls." She got off of him and kneeled beside him.

"It's alright Sweetcheeks" Dave said, slapping her ass.

"Oh so that's how you want to play huh? You wanna get spanked?" Lauren asked. She grabbed the base of Dave's balls with one hand and playfully spanked them with the other.

Dave felt a light sting from the slap. He laughed and smacked her ass again.

Lauren laughed and slapped his balls again. They took quite a few turns spanking each other, gradually building up the force. Dave was the first to give up, begging for mercy once the blows got too hard. He grabbed his balls and curled up to protect himself.

"I'm so sorry Baby, I guess I got carried away there. Are you going to be ok?"

"Yeah, just give me a moment."

Lauren spooned him and stroked his hair, massaging his back with her breasts.

Dave loved every moment, the way she was touching him made him feel so loved, he needed this.

"How are you feeling big guy?"

"Can we just lay here like this for a while?"

"Sure Babe."

Dave turned to face Lauren, he snuggled up to her as she curled up in his arms, letting him spoon her. He wanted to tell her he loved her so badly. "This is so hard." Dave sighed, as he clung to her.

"What do you mean?"

"Being with you like this, when we play together I have all of these feelings that I want to express. I want be able to tell you how much I love you and I wish I could hear you say it back. It sucks having to hold all of this in when it wants to explode out of me. But I don't want to piss you off or make you feel uncomfortable. I get that you don't want to do the mundane relationship stuff with me, but could we just play pretend when we are together like this? Like we are in our own little bubble? I want to act like we are in love during our play sessions. Would that be okay? It doesn't need to mean anything in our real lives."

Lauren's heart sank. She wanted so badly to give him what he was asking for just to make him happy but she felt like it would be unfair to him when she knew he meant it and she didn't. She could be damn convincing if she wanted to but the feelings just weren't there. She didn't think she could feel that way for anyone. She had been in relationships like this before where she just played along and in the end the other person ended up getting hurt.

She had made friends with many lonely men in the past and enjoyed being one of the only bright spots in their lives. She enjoyed the way they valued her company. The interactions with these men fulfilled her but she never truly had romantic feelings. She'd allowed them to play pretend for the ego boost, calling each other pet names and saying that they loved each other, texting selfies throughout the day and leaving messages with heart emojis to each other. She didn't even do anything sexual with some of these men. She just provided herself as a surrogate girlfriend to make them feel less lonely. She tried to be upfront with them, letting them know that she didn't want anything serious and it was just roleplay to her. This roleplay was meant to give them the confidence and experience to be able to move on to something real but they'd always cling to her and want to make things more serious instead of finding someone else. When the pressure to commit got too intense she'd freak out and run away, wondering if she had done more harm than good. After the last time, she realized she was just being selfish in all of this, feeding her own ego under the guise of helping these men. She loved being their dream girl and making their dreams come true, at least for a time. She had even accompanied them to work or family events so they could show her off. It always ended badly because they wanted more than she was willing to give.

She had approached this situation with Dave differently, only focusing on sex. Hoping he'd just be interested in hooking up. She had tried to keep emotions out of it but here she was again, in the same situation she'd been trying to avoid.

Dave waited for a response, he hugged her a little tighter, grinding his hips against her. "Lauren? Please answer, why won't you talk to me?"

"I don't think it's a good idea."

"Why not? It wouldn't change our dynamic very much. It's just saying I love you. You don't even need to mean it when you say it. Why is it such a deal breaker for you to let me tell you I love you and say it back to me?"

"Because Dave, I've been through this before and when people start playing pretend about feelings but one person means it and the other doesn't, it leads to the person with feelings getting hurt."

"So you don't want to do this for me? Once again it's just about what you want huh?"

Lauren turned to face him and caressed the side of his face with her hand, sadly looking into his eyes "No Dave, it's not like that. It's not about what I want, it's about protecting you. I'd love to do what you are asking. I would be so good at it making you feel loved that you'd think it was real and I'd love every second of it, but in the end I still wouldn't love you and it would end badly..."

Dave pushed her hand away and sat up and turned to look down at her "What are you so afraid of? Why are you so sure you could never love me? Why is it that I am so unlovable to you and yet you have no qualms about having sex with me?"

Lauren sat up too, bending her knees so she could lean forward and rest her arms on them, "Because I've never loved anyone ok?" she said as she buried her face in her hands. She squeezed her eyes shut, trying to prevent any tears from falling, she took some deep breaths to calm down and continued "and I'm afraid of pretending because the last guy I pretended with beat me up ok?" she said, still covering her face, breathing hard. She was afraid that she would start crying if she continued talking.

He considered her words for a moment. He wanted to put his arm around her to comfort her but he wasn't sure if she'd freak out. He could imagine putting his arm around her and getting a fist in the balls if she flailed when he touched her. Instead he reached forward and placed his warm hand on her shin, just above her foot and gently squeezed. "Lauren, could you please look at me?"

She slowly looked up at him with a pained expression.

He moved his hand to her shoulder and gave her a meaningful look "I hope you know I would never hurt you like that. I am not a violent man, it's not in my nature. Do you think I wouldn't get hurt if things ended right now? I'd be devastated to lose what we have. I already have such deep feelings for you. It doesn't matter if we end things now or long into the future, I'm still going to be hurt. It's too late to prevent that."

Lauren's heart sank, she hadn't thought about that. *I should just avoid getting close to people at all costs. I always fuck everything up.* "I know... and I'm sorry about that. I should have never gotten involved with you to begin with, I see that now."

"No! that's not what I'm saying at all. I've loved every second we've spent together." He removed his hand from her shoulder and placed his palm on the far side of her lower back, sliding his fingers down to caress the top of her ass. "Every day I wake up excited because you are a part of my life. I wouldn't give that up just to avoid getting hurt in the end. You say you want to do this for me but you won't because you are protecting me but I don't think it's fair for you to decide what's best for me. I'm a grown man, I can make my own decisions. I don't want to worry about the future, I want to live in the moment. Do you know how long I've been waiting to feel this way about anyone? Please, I need this from you. Can't we just do this and see where it leads?"

Lauren sighed and hung her head. He was right, he was in so deep he'd get hurt now or he'd get hurt later if things ended anyway. Maybe things could fizzle out and no one would get hurt? She hoped she wouldn't regret this in the long run. "Ok, but remember what you said, when we are together we are in a bubble and anything that is said in the bubble doesn't mean anything in our real lives." Lauren reluctantly agreed. She was certain she'd end up hating herself for this.

"Deal." Dave said happily. "Can we have sex now?"

Lauren nodded.

Dave got up and took his boxers off and walked to the foot of the bed. She spread her legs and brought her knees up to her shoulders. Dave climbed on top of her and inserted his cock into her warm, wet pussy, letting out a moan as he felt how tight she was. At this angle he was able to slide all the way inside her until he felt his balls pressing against her ass. He wanted to feel his balls pounding into her ass like the first time they had sex, but this time he would be in control. He passionately fucked her, enjoying the pressure as he felt his balls squishing against her.

Lauren laid there feeling his weight on top of her. She felt his thick penis pressing into her g-spot, it felt amazing as his balls pressed into her ass with every thrust. She clenched her ass and thrust into him, grinding her ass into his balls.

Dave groaned as he felt his testicles slam into her with each thrust, the way she clenched her ass made her pussy clamp tightly around his penis. It felt so good. He lustfully grabbed one of her tits in his hand and moaned loudly as he fucked her. He was close to cumming. He looked down into her eyes and passionately, needily said, "I love you so much Babe."

Lauren hesitated for a brief moment as she looked back up at him. She couldn't bring herself to say it to him while he was looking at her so expectantly, it felt forced and her heart wasn't in it. She was scared that if she tried, it would sound insincere and be worse than not saying anything at all. She saw a flash of hurt in his eyes when she didn't respond right away. The mood had totally been ruined.

Dave let go of her boob and looked away kind of embarrassed. *Why did she have to be so difficult?* He moved off of her and went to sit on the edge of the bed, defeated and feeling his frustration starting to build.

As soon as Dave was off of her, Lauren sat up. She hated this situation she was in, being forced to tell him that she loved him, but she also hated seeing the pain he was in at her rejection. She got off the bed and stood in front of him. He was hunched over and looking down. She reached out and caressed the back of his head. Leaning forward, her boobs just inches from his face, she whispered "I'm so sorry Sweetheart". She leaned down and kissed the side of his face "This is just going to take some getting used to okay?" she kissed him again. "I love you too Sweetheart." She hugged him tightly but he didn't respond. Why couldn't she have just said it back when he said it? Then he would have finished and left happy. She hated seeing him upset like this and would do anything to make it stop. "I'm sorry Baby, I love you."

Dave loved the way Lauren was treating him right now. He was starting to realize that if he acted hurt or upset then Lauren would do whatever he wanted to make him feel better. After all of these years of trying to impress women by being a tough guy, he was starting to realize the benefits of playing a more submissive role. Lauren was such a caring top that if she saw him in pain of any kind she'd be so nice to him that he could use it to manipulate her into having sex with him, letting him dominate her, telling him she loved him, etc. He was starting to understand what she was getting out of this. She seemed to like making him feel better...