My "meritocratic" view of the sub/dom dinamic

Over time I have come to understand how I have a connection to the bdsm world (overall the dynamics of domination and submission) that is not only switch but literally meritocratic. I have always been a big fan of ballbusting, wrestling, and all kinds of physical submission, even very hard, related to a fight.

The thing that I really like, in addition to many others that I won't list in this post or it will get miles long, is the idea that the one who win deserves to submit the other. It is not just a switch dynamic that changes from day to day based on a "mood" it is a deeper thing.

If we have a bit of a fight and (even through underhand tactics of course) I end up subduing you physically or psychologically, it means I deserve to dominate you ... but of course the reverse is also true. I'm extremely aroused by both and if I...deserve...where I am I get even more aroused. Obviously this dynamic is related more to some specific kinks rather than others (particularly ballbusting but not only) but in general, talking about it, I have never met another person who had this peculiarity. Am I the only one?