Is there hope for me? I'm 24, been trying to quit for years. I'm a virgin (by choice, want to wait for marriage), and I have deep-seated horrors about what my first time would be like after all that brainwashing....

24 yo virgin male here. I'm absolutely disgusted at my lack of self-discipline and control. I'm terrified of what porn has done to my dopamine receptors and my sexual preferences. I'm trying to quit, but some stupid idea keeps bubbling up in my head: what if it's already too late? I mean, surely I can't bring my mind to the state \*before\* I ever watched or even \*learned\* that it exists. I feel like this is a "pandora's box" situation, where once something is broken, it can never be fixed or "undone". I'm not looking at IRL women the same way.

I'm writing this post to ask for guidance and experience from other people who have went through this journey and came out the other end. Does it at least get better? Is my fate sealed the moment I made that first mistake years ago?