Humbled by a Dutch Girl

Last year I spent the winter in Amsterdam for work. I'm American so this was a pretty big shift in scenery and I had a hard time making friends and meeting people. Dating was brutal because I'm only about 5' 6.5" tall and Dutch people are really tall. But one night I hit it off with this attractive blond hair blue eyes girl named Anke. Thinks started to get flirty towards the end of the night but I'm usually too much of a pussy to ask her to come home with me. Fortunately, she took the initiative and asked me to come home with her. When we get back to her place, things get physical pretty quickly. We take off our shirts and I unhook her bra. she takes off her jeans and her panties and I take off my pants and go down on her and bring her to orgasm.

But when it came time for the moment of truth, things went sideways. Still naked, she sits up to take my boxers off and sees my 4" staring back at her. Anke made a look of genuine surprise and reflexively said,

"Ohhh so small..."

I felt bad because usually I warn women up front about the four inch punisher so they dont end up in this position. But I figured she wouldnt care about this since I was short and she was like 5'11" and the height difference didnt seem to bother her so I incorrectly assumed this wouldnt be a deal breaker. I apologize saying

"Sorry, I was going to mention it earlier but"

and then she cut me off to make a reference to my height

"I guess I should have expected because you are also a small man"

Not how I wouldve preferred her to phrase it but I got her point.

"I'm just saying because usually the men I'm with are much larger"

She explained that Dutch men (in her experience) are also well hung in addition to being tall. Just my luck.

"Was it always like this or did something happen?"

I still dont know what she meant by that. Is there some freak accident that shrinks your dick? I chuckled nervously and said

"Uhh no it just never grew to be much bigger than this, is all..."

"Do the other women say anything when they see it?"

At this point it felt like we had abandoned any pretense of sex and she was just curious about having a small dick.

"Uh sometimes. Some are nice but some just leave when I tell them."

"Does sex feel different to you than with a much larger penis?"

"Uhh I dont know I've never had one."

In her defense we'd both been drinking alcohol so a lot of her questions were pretty dumb.

"I wonder if I could even feel it..."

Seeing the opportunity to steer the conversation back in the direction I wanted, I smoothly reply "Want to find out out?" I start kissing her neck and try to push her back on her back. But she brushes me off and says

"Oh no thank you, you do not need to do that tonight." I was a bit stunned because she was completely naked on her back after just getting eaten out, I thought that was where this was going. Normally I wouldnt be pushy, but I decide to ask again because she phrased her rejection of me and my penis as if I was trying to do her a favor

"Are you sure? it can be really fun I promise"

but she confirmed that she wasn't interested

"No thank you I do not want it. Thank you for the lovely evening."

She said unsubtly make eye contact with the dick she was just interrogating me about. I take the hint and get dressed and walk back to my flat with blue balls and a bruised ego