Being in a different financial situation than your classmates is BUNS

I don't want to start off with a whole woe with me Yap but being in a different financial situation then most of your class sucks absolute booty fart. I don't want to complain like I'm like the worst off any person could be I literally live in a normal family my parents are teachers they don't make that much money but it's not nothing but for the area I live in you would think that making under $100,000 a year that you were homeless. Its like one day I blinked it opened my eyes and everybody had a brand new 2025 car and nobody has a job, and everyone can afford to buy these nice and clothes and shoes and has the time and money for all these hobbies and it's actually pissing me off. And I don't ever say this to people in real life cuz I don't want them to think I'm a bitter loser but you know what I am bitter. I've had a job since I was 13 years old both my parents work full-time as educators. And I still just genuinely cannot afford all of this extra senior year crap. The only thing anybody wants to do is buy things and do expensive things. And I don't blame them if my dad bought me a car best believe I would use it but I don't understand why it's fair that I'm having to be judged and miss out on so many senior experiences because I just don't have these things. Like for example senior sunrise was like 6:00 a.m. in the park okay that's just one thing I can miss out on that I don't have a car and I have no way of getting there that's fine but I'm looking on the senior calendar on Instagram and there's like 30 plus events plans that I just cannot go to it just feels isolating. And it's like sure could I ask somebody for a ride but after a while people start getting pissed. I feel so isolated even in my own friend group like so many times people will plan things to do and they'll be like oh we should go here at this time and I don't want to be a Debbie Downer because I don't want everyone to hate me but I can't do these things I don't have a car I don't have the ability to just get up and go places, all mentioning this does is get people angry with me so I've just learned to shut up and miss out on everything. I guess I just feel so isolated and alone and I feel like almost it would be better if I went to a school with people who were in a similar boat to me. Like going to school with all these rich people who don't make fun of you for being poor but they make fun of all the results of you being poor is exhausting. And don't get me started on College I'm so sick and tired of people talking about college. Every conversation I've had about college makes me want to just go off into a little corner and die. I have good grades I'm a pretty average student but I'm going to Community College because my family just genuinely cannot afford to send me anywhere else and help me to buy a car in the same year. People are so nosy and its always " but you get good grades you're in AP classes why don't you just go to a normal College, oh my God you're going to Community College well what do you mean your parents can't afford it just take out a loan be selfish it doesn't really matter that much you're going to miss out on the college experience" Like genuinely don't they know that I want that more than anything It's literally all I sit up at night thinking about But I can't it's not a possibility it's not something I get to do And I'm tired of people Whose mommy and daddy Are paying For everything mocking me.