Exposed to crush, felt so embarrassed but good

So I am bi now, but back then was more straight-ish. I have a very small one.

First year of college had this girl in our friend group I really liked. And she seemed quite friendly to me too.

During summer break we all took a road trip and we found ourselves at a nude beach, and the other guys were more than keen for all of us to go there.

Long story short 3 guys (other than me) and 2 girls. We all get naked, the guys are 1 average and two hung AF, while I am so embarrassed with my 1.5” soft thing.

Well the girl that I liked made a face of conceited disgust when she saw me and later that day when we had a fire by the beach he ended up hooking up with the guy with the biggest cock there (must have been like 6-7” soft) while I was there looking at my crush making out with this dude while my 1.5” soft pp (which had shriveled even more due to the cold and embarrassment) was out there just to provide laughter to everyone.

While it was embarrassing, afterwards I felt it was a necessary evil as everyone knew now, so now both the girls and the boys started behaving to me like I was a complete beta male, which in all honesty with that thing between my legs I am.