F20 I found out my boyfriend was using a sleeve his ex bought for him on me

When my boyfriend and I first started seeing each other, there was one night after a heavy track meet where I wasn't really feeling like going all the way, so I offered to take care of him instead. I started off just using my hands, but then I remembered a toy I had tucked away in my nightstand from a past relationship. It was dark, and I didn't really think much of the history behind it; I just wanted to give him that extra sensation since I was too exhausted for anything else. It felt amazing for him, but after he finished and the lights were back on, he got curious about where it came from. I admitted that I’d originally bought it for my ex about six months before we met, and yeah, I’d used it on him plenty of times during the two years we were together.

At the time, it definitely weirded him out, and I ended up tossing it just to keep the peace and move forward with our new connection. Looking back now that we’ve been together longer and I’ve gotten more into my engineering studies and athletic routine, I actually kind of wish I’d kept it around for those high-stress nights when we both need a quick release. It’s funny how your perspective changes over time, especially considering we’re still using the same furniture and living in the same space where that past relationship happened. The thrill of the "taboo" history doesn't bother me as much anymore; if anything, I’m just looking for more ways to keep our chemistry as intense as it was that first night.