Finally asking my girl to bust me.

I'm a 24 year old male who developed a femdom/ballbusting fetish in my teens. There's something about the traditional dominant male, submissive female "norms" being completely disregarded that has always stuck out to me and turned me on. I've always been into women overpowering and dominating men. Don't get me wrong, I do just fine with what I guess would considered "normal" sex, but there's a part of me that's always wanted to express the femdom side of my sex life, in particular the ballbusting.

I've dated a few girls in the last 8 years and I've always wanted to bring up my ballbusting interest to my girlfriends, but I always had a constant fear of the fetish being rejected, and that rejection leading to awkwardness in the relationship and that eventually ruining the relationship completely. But in the end, for one reason or another, all my prior relationships would end anyway. But with the girl I'm with now (been with her for about 2.5 years, and yes, she's hot), I started to subtly bring up ballbusting about a year ago. She was having issues with one of her male co-workers and while we were discussing the issues she was having, I said something along the lines of "next time he gives you shit, kick him in the balls, that will shut him up!" It didn't really go beyond that in that moment. She kinda laughed it off and said "maybe I'll do that" and the topic of ball kicking kind stopped right there as I didn't wanna pry and weird her out.

Then about 3 months later, I unfortunately ran into a financial setback after making a bad investment, and as we discussed it I again kinda alluded to my ballbusting fetish by saying "man, what a kick in the balls this is." A few more instances would come up where I would compare it to a strike to the crotch, until finally she says "you bring up being hit in the nuts a lot, I'm starting to think you have one of those ball kicking fetishes" she said in a joking tone, kissing me and hugging me to comfort me. Finally, about an hour before writing this (and this is where it gets good) I let her use my phone to look something up, conveniently forgetting to close the private tab where I was watching a ballbusting video. I didn't know who she would react if she even saw it, I was kinda scared, and when she saw it, she kinda gave me a "What the fuck?" look. She gets up from the chair and walks over to me, showing me the screen where the video was on. At this point I was scared, not knowing what she would say next, and she kinda had a disgusted look on her face. "So, you DO like the ball kicking stuff?" She says. "....Yeah..Yeah I do..." I say in a delayed response, "I'm sorry, I know that's weird but I hope it's not a problem. I promise you I won't force my kinks on you." I said in response. She looked down at my phone, shook her head, walked to me and handed it to me "I knew it." she said. As I went to grab the phone from her, my heart sinking into my stomach as I really do have feelings for this girl and don't want to go through another breakup, the next thing I know, she kicks her right leg up, her ankle connecting directly with my balls head-on, her foot smashing against my crotch as I had no choice but to drop the phone and drop to my knees, clutching my balls in the sweet agony I was in after taking a clean, direct kick to the balls, one that momentarily took away my speech and my air. I thought for sure after she kicked me in the nuts she'd break up with me, and that fear became bigger when she said "You're a freak." But very quickly after that, she reached down with her hand and grabbed my face, made me look in her eyes and said "you're my freak" and she kissed me on the lips as I cupped my balls while kneeling in the floor in pain.

To my surprise, she's seemingly into ballbusting and I can't wait to see if she does more!