i am bad for anyone who likes me and anyone i like treats me badly

Just like the title says. but first, lets talk about my past. read my profile and see that ive had some inapropriate ways of relating to men that are my fault and but also sometimes theres. yes i had lots of abuse in my past and yes i sometimes act out becauase of it and choose to be with bad people because of it. things have calmed for me when i was seeing this great guy (a SD) but he moved to DC and i dont want to move there so we started seeing other people.

but when a guy likes me i see how far i can push things and am not being a proper lady. then i like someone and of course theyre bad people like the guys i used to complain about in college.

how do i get to get the right guy to love me and also let him love me?