Conflicted feelings - can I get some advice?

Hi, I (24m) am straight but have never had a girlfriend. In my time being single I have discovered some things about my sexuality, namely that I get excited from feeling and looking feminine and also that I get excited from having power taken away from me (I'll spare you the details). I have also developed a real difficulty feeling sexy.

In order to attract compatible women and also so that I can feel sexy, I have considered feminizing myself - for instance by trying makeup, nail polish, or more androgynous outfits. But I'm conflicted.

Downsides: 1. Women may not be interested in me at all if I did this, instead thinking I'm gay or unattractive. 2. I am worried that with the context of my other sexual traits my desire to be androgynous could be seen as sexist. 3. I am worried that by appearing androgynous I am involving others in my sexuality without my consent. (In fact, I once got a gel manicure with colored polish and found it so exciting that I felt like a pervert for having it and had to remove it before it had grown out). 4. I am somewhat conservative and so pursuing androgyny could alienate my friends. 5. I could have a bad body/skin/etc. for it and end up looking very ugly.

Upsides: 1. Looking androgynous, if it goes well, could make me look better. 2. Looking androgynous could make me stand out and thereby be more attractive. 3. Looking androgynous could help me signal to women what I like. 4. Looking androgynous could make me feel sexy, increasing my confidence. 5. Looking androgynous could make me feel aroused.

TL;DR: I want to look more like a femboy, but I want to have my cake and eat it too. I want people to see me as a pervert in a fun, sexy way, but not see me as a pervert in a gross, creepy way. Can anybody advise me in this?