Behind the shoot retrospective: Mistress Alexandra
So back in the day (mid 90s) there was a site called Scott’s Ballbusting Videos. They were definitely part of a select few sites (a few Japanese ones as well). It basically was a precursor to C4S - basic site that had a thumbnail, description and then you could contact them to buy the VHS. It also said they were sold in select stores.
I was leery sending a video tape to my home for anyone seeing it so one day I went into an adult video store one day in midtown Manhattan and carefully browsed my way over to the fetish videos. I was maybe 17 at the time and still was discovering the early days of this. Lo and behold there was a few trampling videos and Scott’s videos were there. There were three of them. I was floored. I still was hesitant and chickened out of buying it but I was definitely intrigued that this was an actual thing.
So I kept my eyes on the site while in college (remember how long it took to load websites back then especially with graphic pictures haha) and I saw other sites pop up like femaledom and some of the early forums with Caligula (sp?). I was like man I would love to do this. Scott was active on the form as was Andrea (from spikey step). I saw their early video previews online - like the famous office girl one with Andrea and then that clip with knackers from Australia with those two teenage girls and I was like holy sh*t these guys are amazing.
Finally I had gotten my own apartment at 21 and said f it, I emailed (which was quite novel at the time) Scott and ordered a tape (it may have been Ms. crimson or another one) and was told to leave feedback on what I thought. So after getting the vhs in the mail I reached back out to Scott and as a shot in the dark asked if they ever considered volunteers for the shoot. Scott wrote back and said they actually did if I was interested and finally I got the courage and ended up going to a shoot that perhaps became one of the most famous I was ever in - this “ballbusting 101” with Mistress Alexandra.
I was petrified to be honest. I was just coming to terms that I enjoyed getting ballbusted and that this was an actual thing to do with others. Also it’s unnerving to be in front of the camera for the first time. Even though this was early stages of the internet for the most part only those buying these movies via vhs or eventually dvds would see it (boy how times have changed).
Anyway Alexandra was definitely strict and demanding off camera just like she was on. I got a chance to sit and watch her dominate the other guy and then it was my turn. I honestly didn’t know what to expect. I had been kicked a bunch of times so I know I could handle it but never by a professional and never on camera. So I just stood there, stiff as a board. After a bit of action Scott asked me if it hurt at all and honestly I said no. But he said I needed to show more reaction cause I was making her look bad. I think Alexandra was annoyed too because she didn’t want to appear weak.
She started to intensify her attacks but I mostly just took it with limited reaction. It kind hurt but I also didn’t want to show weakness so I just absorbed. And absorbed. She wasn’t happy with me. Then the part where she had me on the ground and told me to jerk off while she busted - I was absolutely horrified. I had never jerked off in front of anyone before - especially not other guys. Add the camera to the mix and her dominant personality, I basically stayed flaccid the whole time.
Had this been a video done later in my career my reaction may have been different. But being 21/22 and full of stage fright - I was like a deer in headlights. She tried her best - but I just wasn’t into her. It sounds weird to say I know, but the humiliation aspect was so new to me I just couldn’t get past showing any emotion or desire for her. Plus I was super embarrassed.
Anyway I took a lot of hits and squeeze over the course of 20-30 minutes or so. And this shoot opened the door for me to do more videos with Scott as he was impressed by my tolerance (although it took me a few videos to learn to show emotion/act on camera).
I did work with Alexandra several times after this and we got more comfortable with each other. I was always intimidated by her though as she carried that strict, Russian disciplinary persona off the camera as much as she did portray that on camera.
I was leery sending a video tape to my home for anyone seeing it so one day I went into an adult video store one day in midtown Manhattan and carefully browsed my way over to the fetish videos. I was maybe 17 at the time and still was discovering the early days of this. Lo and behold there was a few trampling videos and Scott’s videos were there. There were three of them. I was floored. I still was hesitant and chickened out of buying it but I was definitely intrigued that this was an actual thing.
So I kept my eyes on the site while in college (remember how long it took to load websites back then especially with graphic pictures haha) and I saw other sites pop up like femaledom and some of the early forums with Caligula (sp?). I was like man I would love to do this. Scott was active on the form as was Andrea (from spikey step). I saw their early video previews online - like the famous office girl one with Andrea and then that clip with knackers from Australia with those two teenage girls and I was like holy sh*t these guys are amazing.
Finally I had gotten my own apartment at 21 and said f it, I emailed (which was quite novel at the time) Scott and ordered a tape (it may have been Ms. crimson or another one) and was told to leave feedback on what I thought. So after getting the vhs in the mail I reached back out to Scott and as a shot in the dark asked if they ever considered volunteers for the shoot. Scott wrote back and said they actually did if I was interested and finally I got the courage and ended up going to a shoot that perhaps became one of the most famous I was ever in - this “ballbusting 101” with Mistress Alexandra.
I was petrified to be honest. I was just coming to terms that I enjoyed getting ballbusted and that this was an actual thing to do with others. Also it’s unnerving to be in front of the camera for the first time. Even though this was early stages of the internet for the most part only those buying these movies via vhs or eventually dvds would see it (boy how times have changed).
Anyway Alexandra was definitely strict and demanding off camera just like she was on. I got a chance to sit and watch her dominate the other guy and then it was my turn. I honestly didn’t know what to expect. I had been kicked a bunch of times so I know I could handle it but never by a professional and never on camera. So I just stood there, stiff as a board. After a bit of action Scott asked me if it hurt at all and honestly I said no. But he said I needed to show more reaction cause I was making her look bad. I think Alexandra was annoyed too because she didn’t want to appear weak.
She started to intensify her attacks but I mostly just took it with limited reaction. It kind hurt but I also didn’t want to show weakness so I just absorbed. And absorbed. She wasn’t happy with me. Then the part where she had me on the ground and told me to jerk off while she busted - I was absolutely horrified. I had never jerked off in front of anyone before - especially not other guys. Add the camera to the mix and her dominant personality, I basically stayed flaccid the whole time.
Had this been a video done later in my career my reaction may have been different. But being 21/22 and full of stage fright - I was like a deer in headlights. She tried her best - but I just wasn’t into her. It sounds weird to say I know, but the humiliation aspect was so new to me I just couldn’t get past showing any emotion or desire for her. Plus I was super embarrassed.
Anyway I took a lot of hits and squeeze over the course of 20-30 minutes or so. And this shoot opened the door for me to do more videos with Scott as he was impressed by my tolerance (although it took me a few videos to learn to show emotion/act on camera).
I did work with Alexandra several times after this and we got more comfortable with each other. I was always intimidated by her though as she carried that strict, Russian disciplinary persona off the camera as much as she did portray that on camera.
