Beyond the shoot retrospective: French Lily
So - I often get asked who was the best ballbuster I’ve ever had the pleasure to work with. That is such a loaded question since they’re all dynamic in their own ways. But one thing I’ve always gravitated towards was the authentic- someone who truly enjoyed ballbusting as a hobby and wasn’t necessarily a pro dominatrix in real life.
Take for example Lily. Or French Lily as some referred to her. The first time I met her was in a stage type studio and we were doing self defense style tips (Scott had become adept at getting models to try ballbusting within the guise of self defense). At first Lily wasn’t totally sure as she was sweet and didn’t want to hurt me. But a few kicks before the camera went on and she became settled quickly. The first shoot was great and we did clips in small increments. Kicks, knees, hits, etc.
At one point it was time for her to stomp me with her stiletto and she was very nervous about that. One stomp hit my thigh and I was like oh god that’s gonna leave a bruise. But after some conversation and convincing I told her to go for it and she did. And if I close my eyes I could still feel her thin heel crashing into my groin. It was heaven. It hurt but it was heaven. She was in disbelief she didn’t kill me. In my eyes at that moment she was transformed into a ballbusting queen.
Doing that first shoot we actually had a little mishap - I was standing in front of her and she was sitting in a chair. The scene called me to approach her and for her to forward kick me with her heel and then knock me back with a heel to the head (with some acting on my part of course). We typically shot every scene a few times just to get the best action on camera and no exception here. However the third take I bent over a little too far and her heel caught me right under my eye. That was definitely an oh shit moment. Luckily I avoided any major damage but at that point we agreed no more heels around the face.
She was obviously shaken by that and super apologetic but we continued on.
The next time I met her we hit it off right away and she would joke that she would stomp me with her heel again, seductively and in her sexy French accent. I was like oh man who did she become. We had tremendous chemistry and the camera absolutely loved her. She was amenable to just about everything except me being nude. Which I was ok with. She wasn’t the hardest ballbuster but accurate and eager to try things. Eventually the switch fully went on that she wouldn’t hurt me seriously and she became a true ballbuster.
Which led us to this shoot our third and unfortunately last. Firstly, she was amazingly gorgeous in person just as much as she looked on camera. Now, put her in this revealing white lacy outfit and Scott and I just looked at each other and I was like you have to be kidding me. Again - I didn’t like to sexualize the models I worked with so I tried my best to keep eye contact or look elsewhere. But man she was something else. It didn’t help the whole shoot was based around her being a seductive tease. Sort of a new angle for us.
At this point I hadn’t done a lot of barefoot busting as most women wanted to keep their shoes on. Which was fine. So the barefoot kicks were sort of new. And I loved them. You could really get the full feel of your balls being kicked up into your body. It actually hurt more than shoes for me as more surface area was covered with a foot then a pointy or round shoe. At one point she put her foot on my face and it was soft and seductive and if I didn’t have a foot fetish yet - I certainly did then.
But the highlight of the shoot was her wearing those white thick, block heels. She was standing over me and grinding her heel into my underwear. It was like a slow and seductive grind - and my god was it heaven.
Eventually Scott was like let’s see this from your perspective. So I had the camera pov style laying down and was panning up and then back down. I was watching through the lens and she just looked so incredible I felt like I wasn’t even there. I tried my best to keep the camera focused on her and then her sexy heels. Her heels were big and she was actually grinding my penis more than my balls. It was basically into foot job territory and that was actually long my fantasy - so it was tough to make any noises to indicate that it was hurting as in reality it was as pleasurable as it could be for me.
We kept rolling and must have filmed for a few minutes And then without warning I came in my underwear. She didn’t know and i wasn’t super hard or anything. I was trying so hard to stop it because I don’t know if that was her intent. But she was still grinding away with her heel pressing down hard then soft. I still had the camera so you wouldn’t be able to tell my facial expression. But it was probably somewhere between fantasy and deer in headlights. Lol. The good news for me is she kept grinding so my ejaculation mostly stayed down towards my ass and not as apparent around the front of my underwear.
That’s the first time I had ever cum in a shoot. But the shoot wasn’t over yet. The next scene called for me to be behind her and for her to backhand punch me. I was so embarrassed that I didn’t even look at her but I think she knew. I tried to bend over enough so that any cum wasn’t apparent in the front of my underwear. At this point she may have known. But when she hit me it felt ten times more painful than a normal punch. My balls were empty and more sensitive and boy did I feel it as evident by my reaction of dropping to the ground and an audible groan. We did a few takes of that and I was mortified she would hit me and feel wetness. I don’t know if she would have cared but certainly I didn’t want to freak her out either. This was a ballbusting shoot afterall. I got my pants on quickly after that. We never discussed it and not sure to this day if anyone knew.
Looking back - despite my embarrassment at the time this shoot was pivotal for my acceptance that I had found what my thing was. At this point I enjoyed the ballbusting immensely but with my pain tolerance it became more of a job (unpaid of course) - kinda like a stunt man. Clock in, take your beatings and go home.
Also I wasn’t comfortable doing the more sexual stuff on camera. Scott had normally been the one getting off on camera with any of those models who were willing. I was just the “action guy” so new territory for me. As much as he prompted me to do the more sensual stuff with a mistress I was hesitant. Although I did have some shoots where I was nude - like the mistress remi one where she was dressed as a nurse and had red heels.
It was actually after that shoot with Remi that I got the courage to have my own mistress sessions in their studios where the mistress would just so happen to get me off ballbusting. Not all the time but they were pros and knew when it was time.
I only came in a ballbusting shoot once after that though - it was a private shoot I did with Malin and I’ll try to post a look back on that too.
But if you want my honest opinion - Lily was probably the sexiest ballbuster I ever met. Her transformation from timid and a bit reserved to full on sexy sadist was remarkable.
Take for example Lily. Or French Lily as some referred to her. The first time I met her was in a stage type studio and we were doing self defense style tips (Scott had become adept at getting models to try ballbusting within the guise of self defense). At first Lily wasn’t totally sure as she was sweet and didn’t want to hurt me. But a few kicks before the camera went on and she became settled quickly. The first shoot was great and we did clips in small increments. Kicks, knees, hits, etc.
At one point it was time for her to stomp me with her stiletto and she was very nervous about that. One stomp hit my thigh and I was like oh god that’s gonna leave a bruise. But after some conversation and convincing I told her to go for it and she did. And if I close my eyes I could still feel her thin heel crashing into my groin. It was heaven. It hurt but it was heaven. She was in disbelief she didn’t kill me. In my eyes at that moment she was transformed into a ballbusting queen.
Doing that first shoot we actually had a little mishap - I was standing in front of her and she was sitting in a chair. The scene called me to approach her and for her to forward kick me with her heel and then knock me back with a heel to the head (with some acting on my part of course). We typically shot every scene a few times just to get the best action on camera and no exception here. However the third take I bent over a little too far and her heel caught me right under my eye. That was definitely an oh shit moment. Luckily I avoided any major damage but at that point we agreed no more heels around the face.
She was obviously shaken by that and super apologetic but we continued on.
The next time I met her we hit it off right away and she would joke that she would stomp me with her heel again, seductively and in her sexy French accent. I was like oh man who did she become. We had tremendous chemistry and the camera absolutely loved her. She was amenable to just about everything except me being nude. Which I was ok with. She wasn’t the hardest ballbuster but accurate and eager to try things. Eventually the switch fully went on that she wouldn’t hurt me seriously and she became a true ballbuster.
Which led us to this shoot our third and unfortunately last. Firstly, she was amazingly gorgeous in person just as much as she looked on camera. Now, put her in this revealing white lacy outfit and Scott and I just looked at each other and I was like you have to be kidding me. Again - I didn’t like to sexualize the models I worked with so I tried my best to keep eye contact or look elsewhere. But man she was something else. It didn’t help the whole shoot was based around her being a seductive tease. Sort of a new angle for us.
At this point I hadn’t done a lot of barefoot busting as most women wanted to keep their shoes on. Which was fine. So the barefoot kicks were sort of new. And I loved them. You could really get the full feel of your balls being kicked up into your body. It actually hurt more than shoes for me as more surface area was covered with a foot then a pointy or round shoe. At one point she put her foot on my face and it was soft and seductive and if I didn’t have a foot fetish yet - I certainly did then.
But the highlight of the shoot was her wearing those white thick, block heels. She was standing over me and grinding her heel into my underwear. It was like a slow and seductive grind - and my god was it heaven.
Eventually Scott was like let’s see this from your perspective. So I had the camera pov style laying down and was panning up and then back down. I was watching through the lens and she just looked so incredible I felt like I wasn’t even there. I tried my best to keep the camera focused on her and then her sexy heels. Her heels were big and she was actually grinding my penis more than my balls. It was basically into foot job territory and that was actually long my fantasy - so it was tough to make any noises to indicate that it was hurting as in reality it was as pleasurable as it could be for me.
We kept rolling and must have filmed for a few minutes And then without warning I came in my underwear. She didn’t know and i wasn’t super hard or anything. I was trying so hard to stop it because I don’t know if that was her intent. But she was still grinding away with her heel pressing down hard then soft. I still had the camera so you wouldn’t be able to tell my facial expression. But it was probably somewhere between fantasy and deer in headlights. Lol. The good news for me is she kept grinding so my ejaculation mostly stayed down towards my ass and not as apparent around the front of my underwear.
That’s the first time I had ever cum in a shoot. But the shoot wasn’t over yet. The next scene called for me to be behind her and for her to backhand punch me. I was so embarrassed that I didn’t even look at her but I think she knew. I tried to bend over enough so that any cum wasn’t apparent in the front of my underwear. At this point she may have known. But when she hit me it felt ten times more painful than a normal punch. My balls were empty and more sensitive and boy did I feel it as evident by my reaction of dropping to the ground and an audible groan. We did a few takes of that and I was mortified she would hit me and feel wetness. I don’t know if she would have cared but certainly I didn’t want to freak her out either. This was a ballbusting shoot afterall. I got my pants on quickly after that. We never discussed it and not sure to this day if anyone knew.
Looking back - despite my embarrassment at the time this shoot was pivotal for my acceptance that I had found what my thing was. At this point I enjoyed the ballbusting immensely but with my pain tolerance it became more of a job (unpaid of course) - kinda like a stunt man. Clock in, take your beatings and go home.
Also I wasn’t comfortable doing the more sexual stuff on camera. Scott had normally been the one getting off on camera with any of those models who were willing. I was just the “action guy” so new territory for me. As much as he prompted me to do the more sensual stuff with a mistress I was hesitant. Although I did have some shoots where I was nude - like the mistress remi one where she was dressed as a nurse and had red heels.
It was actually after that shoot with Remi that I got the courage to have my own mistress sessions in their studios where the mistress would just so happen to get me off ballbusting. Not all the time but they were pros and knew when it was time.
I only came in a ballbusting shoot once after that though - it was a private shoot I did with Malin and I’ll try to post a look back on that too.
But if you want my honest opinion - Lily was probably the sexiest ballbuster I ever met. Her transformation from timid and a bit reserved to full on sexy sadist was remarkable.
